paranoia
untethered fear
anxiety
I self medicated a lot.
Tripped the remnants of my sanity away, leaving two equally insane halves left fighting over the carnage.
Locked in alone,
I lost track of days. My mind unraveled in the haze and isolation
It’s like I went to sleep at twenty-five and woke up at thirty.
"I’m in my holy shade, sacred sable.
Can’t see myself sitting across the table."
Alchemist’s Lament (Summer Bends)
Sneak Peek -Album in progress
my struggle
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I learned just how human and fragile I am.
I write and perform with more empathy for others than I ever dreamed I could summon.
Though I’m not quite an open book, I’m damn close.
This is Rougarou.
I couldn’t exist without it.
ALBUM RELEASE - JULY
Influenced by Southern Gothic and Americana, Adoniram is described as Canadiana and has been called 'haunting’, and ‘introspective’.
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my triumph
"Had to find it for myself,
And everything hurts.
But if I want to be happy:
I’ve gotta learn to love my work."
Learn to Love Your Work
Sneak Peek - album in progress
"Your inner child and its broken smile. Architect of the downward spiral."
Rougarou
Sneak Peek
Adoniram, aka Trevor James
the artist
I had a massive psychotic break in 2020.
It took me almost three years to mostly recover, and two more years to get my sh*t together.
After losing everything, you really have nothing to lose in pursuit of your dreams.
I hope to promote self-discovery. I want to communicate how I felt when I wrote these songs.
"In the morning just past dawn,
I wrote a new, and terrible song.
I just had to put it down,
And wandered out, from my hometown."
That Old Song (Resolution)
Sneak Peek - album in progress
I’m finally on my own two feet again, but I’m right before I set off down the road.
My personal journey is a very long story, best summed up with "I got very lucky" - lucky I didn't die from my own corrupted judgement along the way.
I use music to lament my journey, to explore my new present and eventually, to define my future.
